Mother Teresa; to the world the
epitome of humility and saintliness. She
was honored by popes, presidents and
with a Nobel peace prize. But a recently
published book of her personal letters
reveals a troubled soul. As early as
1953 she wrote, "... there is such terrible
darkness within me, as if everything was
She continually referred to her
"darkness" and to Jesus as "the Absent
One" when discussing her spiritual
condition with her confessors. She wrote
in 1979, "The silence and the emptiness is
so great — that I look and do not see, —
listen and do not hear." This a common thread in her private communications
until her death in 1997.
Since the publication of this book
of her private struggle, the world has
wondered how such a "saint" could feel
such spiritual darkness. Some have
praised her for her "humanitarian" work
as if that should have given her light for
She claimed that one Roman Catholic
counselor brought her some relief with
the idea that she was simply sharing in
the suffering of Jesus on the cross when
He felt abandoned and cried, "My God,
My God. Why hast thou forsaken me."
The Vatican teaches that our suffering can add to the "treasury of merit"
established by Jesus and contributed to
by those who suffer in the world. This
teaching is based on a misinterpretation of
David C. Cloud of Way of Life
Ministries followed the career of Mother
Teresa for many years. He has said all
along that she "...was a faithful daughter
of Rome, that her Jesus was the wafer
of the Catholic Mass, that her protector
was Mary, and that her gospel was
Several times in her speeches she
would state the importance of having a
priest to turn the wafer into the body,
blood and divinity of Jesus.
At one point, when asked if she
attempted to "convert" the homeless
that she ministered too, said, "Of course
I convert. I convert you to be a better
Hindu or a better Muslim or a better
Protestant. Once you`ve found God, it`s
up to you to decide how to worship him."
She obviously had bought into the idea
that all religions ultimately lead to God.
Mother Teresa is a sad example of
how religions based on ritual leave the
people with a darkness of soul. She
was intimately acquainted with the
major religions of the east: Hinduism,
Buddhism, Confucianism and probably
even some of Islam. Yet she did not find
in them any light for her "darkness."
Their rituals were as spiritually hollow as
those of her Roman Catholicism.
Yet her fame contributed to the
bondage that kept her from seeing the
true Light of the world, the Jesus of the
Bible, not her wafer "Jesus." Many years
ago a sincere and faithful servant of the
pope struggled for half a lifetime with the
contradictions between his "church" and
his Bible. Finally he determined to reject
the traditions of Rome and stand on the
That man was Charles Chiniquy.
The book he wrote entitled 50 Years in
the "Church" of Rome, describes his
struggles in detail. Although written in
the middle of the 19th century, it is still a
useful description of the bondage holding
the billion people who are members of the
"church that never changes."
This book is available from Chick
Publications along with several others
designed to help the soul winner see
that lost Roman Catholics need to be
introduced to the real Jesus. We must
not be deceived by those who say that
there are born-again Catholics. If they
have not come out from under the pope,
they still, like Mother Teresa, worship a
wafer "Jesus" and trust in the Virgin Mary
goddess to get them into heaven.